Today, we went to a museum with our class and it wasn't that much fun. I have my 'buddy' in class, but she always left me behind. So I was constantly walking alone, looking for answers we had to fill in. Have you ever wondered: "If I disappeared right now, would somebody notice?" That's exactly the feeling I had today. Actually; it's the feeling I have almost everyday.
As I told you before, the boy I'm in love with has a girlfriend since yesterday. I asked him who she was (that's normal I think) and he didn't want to say her name. How am I supposed to feel about that? I have a sort of suspicion about which girl it could be, but I don't want to ask it and she's a slut. And no matter how much I hate sluts, I wouldn't tell him, because he's happy. And in the end, that's all I want him to be.
So there's this boy I'm totally in love with, but I'm pretty sure he'll never love me back. That sucks. Now I just found out, he's not going out anymore to the places I go to, so I'll probably never see him again. That sucks. Oh and he has a girlfriend now. That sucks. I will die alone. That sucks too.
I already decided that writing this blog is one of the best things I've ever did. I've had some nice reactions and guess what, i liked it ! It always feels nice to know you're not alone, so if you're feeling alone, desperate, suicidal... just know; you're not alone.
Btw; I'm not English, but I'd like to speak English here, just to make sure people who know me and read this, wouldn't recognize me.
This is pretty much my life. I hate most people alive and there's not a single thing I can do about that. So I spend most of the time screaming along with Bring Me The Horizon. I'm into punkrock, but I'm not a 'fangirl', so don't expect the typical fangirl-posts.
I already decided that writing this blog is one of the best things I've ever did. 
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