Absolute happiness is within our reach. Just realise a dream or live one of these trivial moments that give a feeling of eternity. It is magic, or so they say, why not find out.
I am 32 years old, without a job and recently single again but I have a pretty good idea what I wanna do with my life...
The last week I repeatedly stumbled over the same subject, in movies, series, magazines, Internet... so I figured that it must be a sign... Lists, all kind of lists that people should do before they die, should do when they become single in their thirties, should do to feel alive, should do because it's fun.... So I decided to make a list of my own : 50 things I am going to do before I turn 39 (I found that 40 was to predictable)
I'm gonna do them and blog about it all the way, how I organised it, how I did it, how I felt afterwards... I hope you join me in my journey and that you'll have fun following me in my new adventures.
Here they are:
1. Find 50 things to do, realise at least one of them in the first month, 5 of them in the next year and all of them before I turn 39. 2. Set foot on each of the seven continents. Antarctica might seem a hard one but once I've reached all seven I'll can truly say that I am a world traveller! 3. find myself a job that is exciting and pays lots of money (so that I can reach the other 49 goals) 4. Get myself a nice white car with lots of fun options 5. Go to the airport and get a ticket for one of the next ten flights 6. Create or find my own constellation of stars and name it after me 7. travel alone for at least a week 8. become pentaglot (know five languages) and then learn a foreign language a bit out of the ordinary 9. Get really drunk 10. milk a cow 11. Steal a sign 12. Find out about my ancestors 13. Swim naked at midnight 14. Spend Christmas or new year's eve with an association for homeless 15. make a road trip 16. attend to Mardi Gras and get lots of pearls 17. so a nude photoshoot 18. help an animal gave birth 19. get a tattoo 20. crash a party 21. see the northern lights 22. buy everyone in the pub a drink 23. travel a continent by train 24. throw a huge party with no reason 25. be an extra in a movie 26. attend a music festival in another country 27. ask for a raise 28. plant a tree 29. watch the launch of a space shuttle 30. attend to the Carnival in Brazil and try to be in the parade 31. write my will 32. spend Christmas in an exotic location 33. Visit the gravestone of a cultural icon I admire 34. Participate in Thailand's New Year's water fights festivities in Songkran 35. Go to a movie drive in and make out 36. meet my favourite writer 37. Go to Las Vegas 38. Make a cruise 39. Make cookies from scratch 40. Live in another country for at least a month 41. Play darts on the World Map and go wherever the darts tell you to go 42. Kiss in the rain 43. Start my own business 44. Ride a gondola in Venice 45. Follow a band on tour 46. Fly over New York in a helicopter 47. Send a message in a bottle 48. Watch wild whales 49. Have sex with an ex, No Strings Attached 50. Publish an article about my experience in a paper
Starting from scratch at 32
50 things to do before I turn 39
03-09-2011
Introduction
Absolute happiness is within our reach. Just realise a dream or live one of these trivial moments that give a feeling of eternity. It is magic, or so they say, why not find out.
I am 32 years old, without a job and recently single again but I have a pretty good idea what I wanna do with my life...
The last week I repeatedly stumbled over the same subject, in movies, series, magazines, Internet... so I figured that it must be a sign... Lists, all kind of lists that people should do before they die, should do when they become single in their thirties, should do to feel alive, should do because it's fun.... So I decided to make a list of my own : 50 things I am going to do before I turn 39 (I found that 40 was to predictable)
I'm gonna do them and blog about it all the way, how I organised it, how I did it, how I felt afterwards... I hope you join me in my journey and that you'll have fun following me in my new adventures.
Here they are:
1. Find 50 things to do, realise at least one of them in the first month, 5 of them in the next year and all of them before I turn 39. 2. Set foot on each of the seven continents. Antarctica might seem a hard one but once I've reached all seven I'll can truly say that I am a world traveller! 3. find myself a job that is exciting and pays lots of money (so that I can reach the other 49 goals) 4. Get myself a nice white car with lots of fun options 5. Go to the airport and get a ticket for one of the next ten flights 6. Create or find my own constellation of stars and name it after me 7. travel alone for at least a week 8. become pentaglot (know five languages) and then learn a foreign language a bit out of the ordinary 9. Get really drunk 10. milk a cow 11. Steal a sign 12. Find out about my ancestors 13. Swim naked at midnight 14. Spend Christmas or new year's eve with an association for homeless 15. make a road trip 16. attend to Mardi Gras and get lots of pearls 17. do a nude photoshoot 18. help an animal gave birth 19. get a tattoo 20. crash a party 21. see the northern lights 22. buy everyone in the pub a drink 23. travel a continent by train 24. throw a huge party with no reason 25. be an extra in a movie 26. attend a music festival in another country 27. ask for a raise 28. plant a tree 29. watch the launch of a space shuttle 30. attend to the Carnival in Brazil and try to be in the parade 31. write my will 32. spend Christmas in an exotic location 33. Visit the gravestone of a cultural icon I admire 34. Participate in Thailand's New Year's water fights Songkran festivities 35. Go to a movie drive in and make out 36. meet my favourite writer 37. Go to Las Vegas 38. Make a cruise 39. Make cookies from scratch 40. Live in another country for at least a month 41. Play darts on the World Map and go wherever the darts tell you to go 42. Kiss in the rain 43. Start my own business 44. Ride a gondola in Venice 45. Follow a band on tour 46. Fly over New York in a helicopter 47. Send a message in a bottle 48. Watch wild whales 49. Have sex with an ex, No Strings Attached 50. Publish an article about my experience in a paper
So I found myself 50 things to do, so I guess the first goal is almost reached... onlyachieve 5 goals inthefirstyear andallthe other goals beforeIturn39... mmm stilla little wayto go!
The second thing that I'm working on really hard, well because not only it is one of my 50 things to do, it is the thing I need most in my life right now : a job...
Looking for a job is a full time job!! I do nothing else!!! Running from one interview to another, telling about myself over and over again, searching the web for new vacancies every hour... EXHAUSTING.
But I managed to have some pretty nice interviews, one of them even told me right away that I'm hired!!! So if the salary is good I might have a job!!!
Though everything that could go wrong went wrong the morning of the interview:
The train wasn't late but stopped at the next station for more than 20 minutes with no apparent reason, arriving at my destination already late it didn't look like how it is described on mappie at all, so I asked a guy from DHL to tell me which way to go, in a hurry I walked for about a good ten minutes when I realised it could not be the wright direction!! The DHLguy sent me the wrong way!
With no credit on my phone and nobody to contact I was discouraged, I thought that I could forget about this job...
When I finally arrived at destination, I was more then 20 minutes late and my feet hurt like hell, my haircut was not what it was supposed to be and I'm pretty sure my make up didn't survived the tearing of my eyes from the cold wind !! NO good first impression... Luckily the second impression and all those who followed were better because at the end of the conversation they told me I could start on the 19the of this month
Goal 3 : 'find myself a job that is exciting and pays lots of money (so that I can reach the other 49 goals' well maybe not a 'lot' of money but a goo start, a bonus if I have a good evaluation and lots of holidays!!! (35days a year!!) ---> CHECK
The summer of2011,asummerthat I will neverforget, asummerI hadbeen looking forward for a long time, asummer thatwasnothing like whatI expected it to be,asummerthatturnedintoanightmare. 32andsingleagain,all those dreamsthatseemedto be waiting andgo to waste forsomething thatwould not come. IsupposeIshouldtell youalittle bit about itso youcan understandme in my future adventures...
Love,astrangething,you spendyourtimelooking for it like that's what yourlife need to be complete and to bring you happiness,and then you findtheone,you arehappyeven if it'shard work,and then you lose it andthat same love is the one thingthatbreaksyouinto a thousand pieces. In JunemyMcDreamy ( I will call him mcdreamy cause, face it he is my mcdreamy) saidthathis feelings for mewere reducing andhe did not believethatthey couldcome back.That's it,Ihadneither time noropportunityto do something,hismindwas made.Hesoonbegandatingsomeone new.I felt like an oldand worn outpair of shoesthathe hadthrown awayand replaced withnew ones.How couldI evercompete withthis newexcitingbeautifulpair of shoes?
In Augustafriend of minediedverysuddenlyandI realizedthat Ishouldgetmost out of life!It cansuddenly be over and younever know iftomorrowwill come.
Meanwhile,I lost waight,I haveajob that pays wellandI like to do,Ibought my own car, I moved in at 'our'home and made it cosy, I make long walks with my lovely dog James every day and I started to take German lessons... Honnestly?I hoped it would all letMcDreamy fall in love with me all over again, we could move on, be happy again, we would learn from this experience and be even better together and this all story would be nothing more than a bad memory.
ButMcDreamyiswithhisnew pair ofshoes onholidayin Portugal at this moment...However difficultthe summerhas been,this week isthe hardestof my life.
Last week ItoldMcDreamythat I still love him,and that's whynot I could not be justfriendswith him.See himmove onwith his life,with another women, ithurts too much. ButMcDreamyreactedvery differentlythanI expected,he seemedto doubtand asked fortime, timeto assessourrelationship,if hewants to give it another go or that hewas going togothrough lifewithhis newpair ofshoes...We had a beautiful day together; went to the sea with James, we had the best time, it felt so good! Of course Isaid I'llgivehimthe time he needs, but onlyifhewouldnot go on a holiday withher,that was asteptoo farfor me... Saturday he got on a plane, direction paradise without me but with the new pair of shoes... and my heart broke all over again.
