Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories. and you're always going to miss them. Don't try to replace him, cause you won't. Just get through each day and eventually it'll get better. I promise. Eventually someone will come into your life, and whether or not you realize it, they're going to be something special to you. So don't throw yourself at every guy you see, trying to replace him, or at least dull the memories. Cause you're only going to make yourself see how hard he is to replace. Someone better will eventually come along.
She said she wanted to get high ; he took her to the tallest hill in town she said she wanted to stay up all night and drink; he gave her a 12pk of caffinated pepsi and said "drink up" she said she wanted to shoot herself in the face; so he gave her a water gun a helped her pull the trigger She said that she wanted to cut herself; so he took a polaroid of her, handed her some scissors & got her to cut it up She said she wanted to see her blood; so he took her to get her ears pierced she said she wanted to cry herself to sleep; he had her watch a sad romatic movie before bed she said she wanted to be alone; he gave her a name tag that said "my name is : Alone" she said she wanted to have someone to take care of her, always; he asked when he wasnt
i love you, and probably always will; but we go days without having meaninful conversations and i used to miss you so much when that happened, but it never seemed like you missed me. i guess because of that, i stopped missing you
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