Its surprising to note
that this would be my second time to make a good-bye letter for you.(the second
and dis would be the last). Its funny how circumstances made us close and
drifted us apart with just a blink. It was good until it lasted. Dont get me
wrong, I wasnt into you during those times when our friendship is at its peak.
i just realized it when you were gone again for the nth time. Its funny though
knowing that I made myself believed that I was over you two years ago- a long
time ago, I think. But I was wrong coz I NEVER REALLY MOVED ON, I JUST LET YOU
GO. I have loved you then and love you still until yesterday when realizations
hit straight to my face. September13, supposed to be a special day for me but
not until I remembered you.And I remembered that it was the same date two years
ago that Ive let you read my letter of goodbye. It was never your fault in the
first place.And Im sure I never ever blamed you. I just gave myself and my
heart a chance to fall in love again after a heartbreak and it was you I
thought who deserved that love.Still I was wrong again. You never have find the
courage to loved me back until now. i cant force you to do that. I wont even
beg for that love coz for sure theres someone out there wholl love me even more.
But what can I do, it takes a lot of time to get over you, of this one-sided
love. But this time, Im playing with fate again. I decided not just to let you
go but also to moved on for my sake. It may be so hard to leave
someones close to your heart coz its hurting me.Parting time is one of
the things I despise but now Im saying goodbye and the tears in my eyes, a
proof that its hard but I have to. How could I let go of those memories I
had with you when it is the merriest thing I have come to know.Now Im turning
my back away from my comfort zone. This is a brave decision risking
everything until I drop my sword and just surrender. They say that if you learn
to love , dont learn to surrender.But I have to. I will not cry,I will
not let my guard down.I told myself not to be emotional this time. I will
wear my smile in the day I will leave you behind. For I dont want you to
see the things that I hide. I will always go back to the days we spend
together. In a night when Im all alone I will always remember That
somehow in this life I felt so much better.And my thoughts of you I will keep
forever .
True love is still true
even to the point of letting go. And I can only moved on if I will accept that
it is not just meant to be. Loving you is and will never be a mistake. Ive
learned through the pain and youre not the one to blame. The best thing of
loving you is that the mere thought of you makes me smile and I dont know why
you affect me this much. You were not the prince I longed for in this life but
you could be my knight and shining armour if you just let me be your damsel in distress.
I wanted to be always there for you, to make you smile when youre sad, to wipe
away the tears in your eyes and especially to heal your broken heart, to let
you believe in love again. That theres more to life after the rain poured down
on you. That was before though. It sounds good to hear the words : the
best boy with the best girl. Unfortunately, there was never us. We started as
friends and thats how well ever be. I cant wait for you until forever coz
Im not living with those stories in those novels Ive read that one day the
one you love will loved you back. Its not so realistic, I guess. Its hard to
sit in a corner and wait for something that might never happen.
I will always remember you
not as the one who broke my heart but as the one who taught me how to live with
a broken heart. Just give me enough time and I will get over over you. Thats
for sure and I intend to be true to my words this time. I can never forget you.
You have been an important and special picture in my life. Thank you for the
memories dis girl. Dont worry, dis boy gonna be alright. I always be you for
ever and ever in my heart and my soul!!!
''het is onmogelijk'' zei trots
