We've been lasting for more than 5 months now. Still we haven't seen eachother in real life ... But for me it feels like we have.

She's more real to me than my parents, than the people I see everyday. 

I dream about her as if she is God. 

Sometimes it only makes me feel bad, because I feel empty, because I'm so lost without her ...

My everyday-life only becomes harder missing her more every second.

But that's the struggle ... Every second is harder, but every second passing is a second closer to seeing her. 

Knowing that I will see her eventually keeps me holding on. But it's not strong enough to keep me alive.

The only thing strong enough to keep me going is hearing her.

One second without her is fine, 

One minute without her is okay,

One hour without her is a burdan,

One day without her is heavy,

Multiple days without her kill me 

Imagine longer ... 

I find it really hard, but the waiting gets rewarded by the most beautiful smile you ever saw ...

She is what makes life worth living 

That was her definitive answer ... Although she was overwelmed, which gave me such a good feeling, she now was with me.

That moment was, for me, one of the most important ones of my life. 

After that glorious moment we started to dazzle back down, because we now realized how hard it would be for both of us. 

As a couple living 3335 kilometres away from eachother, it means fighting. Not only for eachother but also for yourself.

You know, not only, have to live for yourself and the other, but you also have to live the time apart.

Which I can tell you, hurts ...

We are both barely adults and we already have to face so much of reality.

The life we lived apart was hard, we each had our fair share of problems ... Well problems ... Life difficulties ... It was extremely hard to survive.

Now we found eachother.

I'm really happy we did, if it wasn't for her i'd probably had done some things that couldn't be undone.

I truely love her.

 

A while ago, about 5 or 6 six months, it all started to change. One day I was scrolling over some facebookpages, untill I saw this amazing photograph of a lesbian couple. As a manifested habit of mine, I check out the wall of this page: "Girl On Girl: A Documentary Film". 

I really liked it's character. It represented an amazing point of view.

So, willing to get more updates from that page, I clicked on the "LIKE"- button.

As soon as I hit that but, I got a new friendrequest.

Curious as all people are, I looked at the profile of this girl. First thing to really hit me, was her profilepicture.

I saw it and I was stunned ... It was like something hit me and I JUST KNEW I HAD to learn to know her.

Ofcourse I accepted her friendrequest and she immediatly started chatting with me.

To me, it felt like she was very precautious and had some low selfesteem, because she asked me if I had problem with her being Iranian.

"Ofcourse not," I said, "Why would I?"

She responded that she already had some trouble with other people in the past.

From that day on we started chatting almost every night.

I had this feeling of 'love at first sight'. (Although we've never really seen eachother yet)

A week later I just couldn't hold myself anymore and I asked her if she wanted to be mine ...

She was kind of overwelmed and asked me to ask again.

So I did.