Yeah guys, today I just NEED to write, just because J, the
guy from the sea side, he is in my head 24/7 and Im getting f#cking crazy
about it. How is that even possible! really oooh!!! Now he is gone, he went to
France with his parents. I wrote him an other lettre to tell him just my side
of how I see the situation right now. And he send me a nice text message back,
that Im chill and he had a great time. my respons : well meet again ;) ! So
actually everything looks great! And actually I should be pretty happy now, I
had an awesome time with him. And we had lots of fun!! kinda what a girl
wants!! but I really like him, and we both dont want a relationship, thats
good, but I dont want one because I just want to be sure about my next
relationship. No stress no drama no doubts, just 2 people who really like each
other .. :) And maybe I can get to know J better, and well see than.. and that
would be great, but maybe we just meet other people and well be good friends,
but I just really hope that he kinda thinks the same, and dont want to forget
me now you know. That we remember the summer as an AWESOME summer ! but that we
also can look at the summer together and we dont have to ignore each other!
I know that im probably making a biiig deal out of something
small and not that complicated, but I just really dont understand why hes
still in my head! ALL THE TIME??!! haha really daaajmn! :D
I had an awesome summer love! and i dont regret anything,
even if he doesnt want to see me anymore.. :)
Hm where should I start, Im working at the seaside for
almost a month now, and its really amazing! But still, some troubles in
paradise. I met a guy, an awesome guy!! really I have no idea how he did it but
he made me crazy about him! Really Im absolutely not the easy-in-love type but
now :s I dont know!!!!
Oke this few sentences I typed 6 days ago, now days later
everything is even more complicated!
So this guy, J, really made my head crazy about him! when
I see him, I get butterflies in my stomach and my heart gets faster. than 2
days ago we went out with everybody from work, including him, and I was pretty
drunk, the problem is that when Im drunk and tired, i get emotional so I did,
he didnt saw that but I was whining to him about why he didnt want me, but I
also dont want a relationship!! because we live pretty far away and we are
both going are first year to college, so starting a relationship right now
would be pretty sucky. But that doesnt mean that i dont like him, cause I do.
And I really thought that he liked me too, but now I dont know. When I read
the texts we send Im really sure that its a little bit more than just one
night stand and flirting for the summer, he really liked me, but now, since he
is back at the sea side, I dont know if its because my expectations are to
big and now Im disappointed or he really isnt interested anymore But before
it was really awesome! He was on a chiro camp and he asked me to send him
letters so I did, and he send me a really nice one back, so pfff I really dont
know the situation!
This evening hes coming over and we are going to watch a
movie and just chill, probably kiss.. but now I want to talk to him but I still
want it to be awesome and chill! so im pretty nerves that Im going to screw
it :s!!
daaaaaamn Im not this kinda girl at all!!!! ooh boy what
the hell can do guys with your head! crazy :D