Hm where should I start, Im working at the seaside for
almost a month now, and its really amazing! But still, some troubles in
paradise. I met a guy, an awesome guy!! really I have no idea how he did it but
he made me crazy about him! Really Im absolutely not the easy-in-love type but
now :s I dont know!!!!
Oke this few sentences I typed 6 days ago, now days later
everything is even more complicated!
So this guy, J, really made my head crazy about him! when
I see him, I get butterflies in my stomach and my heart gets faster. than 2
days ago we went out with everybody from work, including him, and I was pretty
drunk, the problem is that when Im drunk and tired, i get emotional so I did,
he didnt saw that but I was whining to him about why he didnt want me, but I
also dont want a relationship!! because we live pretty far away and we are
both going are first year to college, so starting a relationship right now
would be pretty sucky. But that doesnt mean that i dont like him, cause I do.
And I really thought that he liked me too, but now I dont know. When I read
the texts we send Im really sure that its a little bit more than just one
night stand and flirting for the summer, he really liked me, but now, since he
is back at the sea side, I dont know if its because my expectations are to
big and now Im disappointed or he really isnt interested anymore But before
it was really awesome! He was on a chiro camp and he asked me to send him
letters so I did, and he send me a really nice one back, so pfff I really dont
know the situation!
This evening hes coming over and we are going to watch a
movie and just chill, probably kiss.. but now I want to talk to him but I still
want it to be awesome and chill! so im pretty nerves that Im going to screw
it :s!!
daaaaaamn Im not this kinda girl at all!!!! ooh boy what
the hell can do guys with your head! crazy :D
Last time I said that I was going to write down my life
till now, so you guys can follow my future story. But now I have realised that
I dont want that, well I want you guys to understand the situation, but I
started this blog to go on with my life, instead of being stuck in the past.
Cause Im having a little bit troubles with that, every time I meet new people
I tell them way to much, and all the time I was telling myself, and them, that
it is the past and Im over it, but why am I still talking about it. So I will
tell you what you guys should know on C. but only the important things, and not
the past that I dont even have to remember.
Well,
I saw on blog.com that all the blogs are in english, my English is reeeeeaally
bad. But at least I want the impression that people really read my blog, but
now, its like not even possible. So lets get 2 good points out of this,
People can read my blog if they want to, and I can work on my English. Probably
there are a lot of mistakes in my texts, but well, thats not the clue of my
blog so, not important ;D
But
anyways.
Today
I had my last exam ever of secondary school!!! A few days away from
graduation!! :D Our last was physics, bluuuuh! But afterwards,we went to the
water in the city and we just bought some wine, some music, and juuust chilled
there the whole day. But now Im soooo tired, tomorrow im going out late, but
today just get the sleep I missed the past weeks :D daaamn.
Summer
is coming ! :D Going with my best friend L. to Spain!!! :D Will be awesome!
(btw
im gonna make an other page with like a little bit sort of background
information about me. So I dont always have to explain the whole situation!!)
Ik ben C. Ik ben een meisje van 19jaar, en ik kan
ongelooofelijk hard zagen. En juist daarom start ik met deze blog. Ik vertel
graag, ben niet zo een persoon dat dingen opkropt, maar ik vertel dus ook veel,
en af en toe is dat natuurlijk niet leuk voor de mensen die dat dan altijd
moeten aanhoren. Wel hier kan ik er op los babbelen en de kans dat mensen het
lezen, maar niemand MOET, ideaal vind ik dat dan. Omdat ik toch nog een beetje
mijn privacy wil behouden, en andere geen slecht naam wil geven, ga ik enkel
werken met de 1ste letter van hun naam, ik ben dus C (;.
Stel dat je mij graag zou volgen, wel dat apprecieer ik (;
so thanks!
Oja de reden dat mijn titteltjes in het Italiaans zijn is
omdat ik dooool ben op Italië, en natuurlijk een kleine draai wou geven aan
mijn blog ;D!
Um I really love to talk, but yeah otherwise I wouldnt be
having a blog right :D. I grew up in a really good environment, I have a
nice younger brother and really awesome parents, I kinda screw it al up with my
puberty but thats getting better now. this year i graduated from high school,
art school, and now Im going to university so thats also going great.
But than the reason why Im a little bit confused about my
self right now is because I was sooo much in love with a guy, for 3 years. And
he maybe, I dont know for sure, but maybe he just used my head-over-heels-love
a little bit. We had a great time, absolutely but there were (of course) also
the troubles and the stupid mistakes. I am not saying AT ALL that it was all
his fault, definitely not! I can be a reaaally difficult lady :D! But I would
have done every thing for that guy, his name, B. ;). Yeah I loved him. But
times goes by, and now, we have to go our own way. we broke up a few times, and
there was cheating included, but thats not what I want the remember from the
long time us. My friends are always telling me what a dck he was, what a bad
guy he was, and how he didnt deserve me, but thats bullsht! We had our great
time, and I will never regret our 3 years we spend together, its a long time,
what makes it important, but what also makes it reeeeallly hard to get over it!
But I will be oke! I just need some time! It has been 4 months and a bit. But I
know every thing is going to be oke ;) for both of us, but just not together,
and Im definitely ok with that
So what else
My big dream is an fashion advertisement company, of my
own. thats also the reason why after art school Im going to university, im going
to study economics science. Its going to be difficult, but im reeeaaally
looking forward to it!! but you will hear about that later ;)
hmm what else
Im a tooootal shopaholic! :D I loooove shopping, and you
can tell, when you see my closet, well its actually a dressing. Hmm I love it
so much! besides that I love drawing, writing, filming and photographing!
Hobbys? Soon Kick box and fitness, just quitted
cheerleading, and of course shopping :D and partys.
Well thats pretty much it. youll get to know me better
in my day stories, time will tell.
