Darkness

I feel darkness, I see darkness, I am darkness

When the world is against you and you feel like sh*t, then darkness takes over. 

I wake up, pain over all of my body. 

My head hurts, want to bang it to the wall. 

This is my life, this is how I feel. 

I always put up a wall so people can’t see what I really feel, how deep I really am falling.  

And I keep taking and hiding my hurt, but there comes a moment I can’t do it anymore. 

Than I fall deeper than the deepest sea, where nobody can help me. 

The worst of all, nobody believes me. 

If I really wanted to fake a disease, would I don’t take one where everybody could letterly see that I’m sick? Not in my head, like everybody says.. 

Just give me Some understanding and time to figure myself out so I can be myself and get back to the world. 

No, the only thing people do is don’t believe you and put you even more deeper, deeper to a darker place. 

Maybe it’s better to leave this world.. 

I feel darkness, I see darkness, 

I am darkness.. 

06-06-2019 om 13:23 geschreven door Eline