memories consume                                                 
                                                                     like opening the wound
                                                                  i'm picking me apart again
                                                                                   ...                                                                    






 









i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
but now i have some clarity
to show you what i mean
i don't know how i got this way
i'll never be alright
so i'm breaking,I'm breaking....

but you dont' see...





                                




                          What's behind the smoke and glass
                                                                                   Painted faces, everybody wears a mask
                                                                                                   it's all blue skies     
                                                                                           Fun and games until you fall
                                                                                    Then you're left without anyone at all





"I wanna run
I wanna hide
 and leave this place just like it left me"



           



    




I want to run from myself
I want to hide from the mirror
I want to leave this body with pain and hate




emty place
emty soul
emty heart






-bring me back to home
bring me back to school
bring me back to you-                                               




I wish I could tell you about the war in my head














but I don't ...

a little song..  for you


You BROKED me.
and you never saw that..
you wher mad @ me
with no reason..
you laughed at me
and you taked my proud away..
feelings you hurt
and you STILL don't do anything to get me back





but what I don't get,you could laugh with other girls,but why not with me,
when you're with me,you're always mad,or sad or something like that...

and then I'm thinin:"was I really such a bad friend,how could I ever be so RONG




-I wake up crying at night,and I want to scream out your name,because you hurt me that much
   and you could still laugh without me.-


                    -where all the hopes,where all the dreams,this is nothing we planned our dreams           
                                                 nothing is what it seems,without you and me!!-



I don't understand you could be so happy,
wihout you're best friend
cause I can't
I can't be happy without you

but now I thought,if you hate,nowone talks to me,
and now I'm alone,I've got no friends anymore
you taked them all away
and they don't believe in me,

now I see you're reason to be happy!! 



 and I remenber the times before our fight:
          " When I'm about to fall some how you always waiting 
            Your open arms to catch me "
             but that's all history...



ps; I think you've taken all my proud now.I just want to tell you,
     I never thought you could be like this
        so cold.
        so mean.
        so..                                                    


</3.





BROKENxME

her feelings she hides...
her dreams she can't find...
she losing her mind...
she's fallen behind...
she can't find her place...
she losing her faith...
she fallen from grace...
she all over the place...

** she's all lost in the world...

Now little lisa is only 9 years old
She's trying to figure out why her world is so cold
Why she's all alone and they never met her family
Mama always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listen

Mama's on drugs getting high up in the kitchen
Bringin home men at different hours at the night
Startin with some laughs--usually ending in a fight
Sneak into her room while her mama's knocked out
Trying to have his way and little lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mum but her mama don't believe her
Lisa's stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says shes bout to run away and never come back



Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady trying to figure why her world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleedin on the inside, cryin on the out
There's only one girl really knows what she about

Her name is little Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight till the end
Until one day little stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says shes about to run away and never come back.




Little Erica is eleven years old
She's steady trying to figure why her world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
Plus she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So theres no protection hes using no gloves
Never thinking bout the consequences of her actions
Livin for today and not tomorrows satisfaction

The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowin her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica's stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say shes about to run away and never come back.




I can only imagine what you're going true ladies
sometimes I feel like running away myself
so do me a favour right now and close your eyes and picture us running away together
and when we come back everything's gonna be ok
open you eyes...

xx _stripped_ xx      


stripped from all the make-up
no need for fancy clothes
no cover ups,puch ups,
with you I don't have to put on a show
you love every freckle,every curve,
every inch of my skin
fullfilling me entirely
taking all of me in,you are real,you are honest
you love me for me....<33

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
[ these lyrics found on www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed, watchin’ DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You’d take me out shopping
And all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?

every time we lie awake,
after every hit we take
every feeling that I get
but I haven't missed you yet

every room I get awake
every sigh and scream we make
every feeling that I get
but I don't miss you yet

only when I start to think about you....
I really miss you...</33

hoi hooii x

cvàà iedereen??
jaah me mij ook zeu,ma eu,gwn omda ta tradisie is enzoo .....

VROLIJK PAASFEEST!!! of zoiets

ké dan,kga jullie dan maar pase late viere héé :p

baaaii menseu!!
hvj....<33
kusjeus

yeliz x.

FIGHTER xx

'cause it makes me that much stronger
makes me work a little bit harder
it makes me that much wiser
so thx for making me a fighter
made me learn a little bit faster
make my skin a little bit thicker
makes me that much smarter
so thanks for making me a fighter


_xtina_  xx

yuuuuuuuuuuuu mense!!!!



cvàà me iedreen ??

jaah,kverveel me nu een beetje héé :p
(kben hééééél sgraal aant doen !! )

maja,kzal dan maaris weggaan héé :)

ké dan,ma nog ff een mopjeu!!

wa is de voornaam van E.T.?? ................................................................................................................Jodale!!!!!




ké dan bye bye

x_Yel!z_°°

ey,kwl gwn ff zegge,


alle liekes,gedichtjes enzoo die ierop staan,

das de bedoeling dak iemand iet wil duidelijk make  :)        (mss beteke cliché :p)
accepteer uzelf,en als ge probleme ebt,prate!!

anders loopet slecht af hoor!!    (ik kan het wete!! )

ma nee gwn,sommige liekes diek zelf eb geschreve staan ier ook op^,
mijn gevoelens schrijf ik op in liekes,dus gwn ff prate als ge proble fzoo ebt,das't beste

of schrijve fzoo...

mjaah da moestik ff zegge :)

ké dan,bye bye x.

Yeliz

x_I'm ok_°°

once upon a time ther was a girl
in her early years she had to learn
how to grow up living in a war that she called home
never knew just when to turn for shelter from the storm
it hurt me to see the pain across my mothers face
every time my fathers fist would put her in her place
hearing all the yelling,I would cry up in my room
hoping it will be over zoon

*bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
and I still remember how you kept me so afraid
the strength is my mother for all the love she gave
and every morning that I wake,I look back at yesterday,
and I'm okey

I often wonder why I've carry all this guilt
when it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
shadows stir at night trough a crack in the door
echoes of broken child screaming please no more
daddy don't you understand the damage you have done
for you it's just a memory but for me it still lives on

*

its' not so easy to forget,all the marks you left along her neck
when I was thrown against cold stairs
and everyday afraide to come home in fear of what I might see next

*

x_yeliz_°°= TALK !!!