It was my first full day as a 15 year old girl.Yesterday Tanne,Milla and Andrea staeyd for a sleepover for my birtdy we drunk a little and played the i have never game. We went to bed late but we had to get up early , we almost missed our buss. I had a great day at school , i laughed , i had fun etc. But yesterdag i red a message from my mom to a friend that said that she is sick and that she need a opperation and radiations and that she is very tired and things like that, it sounded like she has cancer. I don't wanna lose my mom , i love her so much. I dare not as her what she has because i'm affraid of the answer. I told Bente about what i red annd se told my grandmother they are now talking in the bathroom , i don't know if my grandmother knows but if it's bad i don't wanne hear it.
24-09-2012 om 20:11
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
23-09-2012
funny fact
Im' addicted to one direction and there new song , i love it !
23-09-2012 om 14:56
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
happy birthday to me
I'm finally 15 , 1 year closer to 16! But also is today the day that i had my last chance to see William , and i didn't take it. I think i should had send him a message or aks if we could go do something but i just didn't dare it , i'm such a pussy. He also didn't say happy birthday to me but the day isn't over yet. In 2 hours my friend Tanne Milla and Andrea are coming for a sleepover , i'm looking forward to it.I'll spee to you later today !
23-09-2012 om 14:54
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
22-09-2012
just 'hi'
In 28 minutes i'm 15, finally.But first let's talk about my day , my last post as a 14 year old girl. I was up very early and i was just chilling. Yesterday i said to my sister that i didn't want micha tomorrow here because it is my birthday. And this afternoon who walked in , ofcourse Micha. I was like oke today is fine but tomorrow naha. The rest of the day i just hanged out and watched tv. And than in the evening a couple minutes ago , the message where i waited a month for finally came. Mehmet and Hassari messaged me on facebook, they still remember me ! They didn't forget ! That means actually alot for me. Guys i still miss you and i will never forget you , i love you!
22-09-2012 om 23:40
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
21-09-2012
pc and personal problems
Sorry ! I that didn't write in like 5 days but my pc died so i had to whait until he worked again. I stayed home from school and nothing special happened also the rest of the week was just normal. But yesterday and today was all drama drama drama. Amber a friend of Karolien lied about having sex , and than she said she did had sex? I mean don't lie she even don't love the kid she is just using him for sex.And than Tiffany smoked for like 3 months , dude why do you smoke ? You can smoke but when i smoke for like one time on a party stop saying shit about me. She is also so selfish, there are 100 lockers in our school for over 300 students and she was on the front of the row fighting for a locker while she doesn't have stuff for work lessons i mean whole my class could use a locker we have to take havy stuff to school every day and she even doesn't have stuff , let the people with stuff first and stop being selfish! There was also a little fight at school today , someone of my class Sabrina said some really mean things on facebook about our class how much she hates uss and things like that. We didn't do anything wrong to her , we talked about it at lunch but that wasn't going well in like 2 seconds the whole school was around us . So we did a class conversation. My birthday is sunday and the ice cream shop is closing than so i'm probably not gonna see William anymore , i really am not liking that !
21-09-2012 om 20:56
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
16-09-2012
i love my mom
I had to wake up at 10 in the morning. I had to go to a fashionshow to help with the make-up and hair. Our teacher told us that we were getting money for the work but we didn't, first thing that wasn't going well. We started to do the models their make up and there was just a really annoying infriendly woman that tought she was the best and tought that she could say wath we had to do and how bad we were doing it but honestly , her make up skills were just under zero. I mean really? blue blush , seriously? And the models with red lips just looked like clowns. After we did all the make up we were able to watch the show. After that we went back to the staion were my grandma was pikking me up. I had to do a lot of homework but i was so tired that i had to lay down and just watch a bit tv , just chill a little. I started with my homework but it was so many and so difficult that my mom said you can stay home tomorrow and than we can make it together than we have al the time because it was very late at that moment.I have just one thing to say about that: Mom, i love you.
16-09-2012 om 23:33
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
party hardy
I had a exhausted day today. I had to clean the bathroom and needed to get ready for Luna Festa. At Luna Festa i was first with my sister and her boyfriend after that i was with Amber and we were just hanging around and than i saw Kevin and Micha they pulled me with them so i hanged around with them and danced on hardstyle and laughed with them. Also Michas ex was there so i had to catch an eye on them. Lukely he didn't do anything wrong but Bente was overreacting. I went to the dupstep stage to chear her up and we stayed there.It was cold and boring and i wasn't in a good mood because William was there to but i didn't saw him.When it was almost time to leave i went to Amber. She was drunk , but i don't think the real drunk i think she was acting a little. And also Micha told me that he readed my blog. I hope for him that he shuts his mouth because i'm not gonna let him go away with that!
16-09-2012 om 02:20
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
14-09-2012
i love mommy
Omg , i'm really freaking out right now. I thinks my sister saw my blog and told her boyfriend about it. Her boyfriend nows Tim , i don't wanna start a fight or rumors. Because i don't love Tim! He is a friend that's it , ofcourse i like him but not like that! William was tagged in a picture with a girl sitting on his legs , like what? You don't wanna give me a goodbye hug and touch me but some random girl can go sit in you? And also i'm not gonna see him this weekend , he is on a party right now and maybe is that random girl there. But also something good happened i had fun in Leuven with Andrea , Tanne and Phillip. I'm at my dads plays now i don't like it here. I wanne go to my mom !
14-09-2012 om 23:12
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
13-09-2012
same old story
Sorry that i didn't post anything yesterday but i actually forgot it. Don't know what's wrong with me but i'm always tired, after school i sleep 2 hours and when it's 11.30 i go to bed and when it's 12 o'clock i fell asleep and the next morning i'm still tired. Maybe i'm just lazy idk. Yesterday was i day like usually , i laught at school had fun and at home i did homework , it are the first 2 weeks of school and they are overlating us with a bunch of tests. I also had a talk with my mom , Jill and Tim came to eat ice cream but i didn't saw them. My mom came to me and said the same thing as me and Karolien,Tim lies below the silt , they aren't a good couple they aren't made for eachother and the relationship is not gonna last longer. Just like me and Karolien tought about the situation. I told her the story from when they stayed for a sleepover and my mom was shocked , she said you never slap someone in the face even if they cal you a stupid bitch , poor Tim. After a while she said is Tim maybe something for you , you to would be a better couple. I was so shocked that she said that but also happy , i just answered it with no and made a weird face with it. I don't wanne tell anything to anybody because it would make problems and i don't want that. I'm at my grandmother's house right now because i have to , and i don't like it at all, if my brother was here it would be cooler but he is with his mom she is a whore just saying.
13-09-2012 om 20:56
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
11-09-2012
freaking karma
I don't know what to do.Everything is just not going like i want it to go. I don't know what i feel , what i want , what i wanna do and what i wanne reach. I tought being a teenager was fun, going to parties, drink , have fun with friends, do everything you want. But it is not like that , at all. It is painfull , people don't care about you the disrespect you and things like that. And offcourse you fall in love for the first time and your hart is gonna be broken but then you are closer to your true love. Speaking of love , i would kill someone to see William , i just miss him and the fact that Amber sees him everyday is not making it better. After school i saw Tim he said hye and i said hello and smiled , it is weard to explain what i feel i like him but it is not that i have butterflies in my belly , but when school is out i always hope that i see him. I don't feel butterflies with William eather but i do like him and maybe i get butterflies when i know him better , or maybe when i know Tim better. I tought it was just lie o i like him for 2 days or something but it is not , i keep thinking about them , about them both. That's the weard thing. Tim has a girlfriend and William thinks i'm to young and i moving to America next year , ofcourse this happens to me. Like always , hye karma what did i do wrong ?
11-09-2012 om 22:10
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
society sucks
I can' sleep , i keep thinking about everything. How much i miss William , i wanna see him so badly. How i like Tim , i'm not really sure if i like him like a friend or more but i don't wanna like him like more. And how badly i wanna go back to Turkey , to Hasari and Seyyar. How annoying Karolien is and how she thinks that she is perfect. About my future , and looks and weight. Just everything , it's so hard being a teenager.Everything is so difficult , everyone is judging you before they know you. People are hating people for no reason ,people think that they have it so bad while children are dying in Africa and living without parents. Life is hard for everyone , but why giving up while you have so much to reach? Why stop dreaming when it is the best thing that is on your mind? Why hiding yourself while the whole world would like to know you? All questions without any answer , and why? BECAUSE SOCIETY SUCKS !
11-09-2012 om 00:24
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
10-09-2012
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don't judge someone before you know them.
10-09-2012 om 19:20
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
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words can hurt , so think twice before you say something.
10-09-2012 om 19:19
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
school is cool
Today was school again , and to be honest i'm starting to like school. I just love my class ! Me Tanne,Andrea and Milla sneeked out of school when it was lunchtime and we eated some fries and went back. I'm a little sick so i look like shit . After school i saw Tim and Jill and when Tim saw me a smile came on his face and on mine to but i wasn't only laughing to him but at the little kid that walked with them so i don't know if he was laughing about that to or if he was just happy to see me. Sometimes is just think tings that aren't true or i don't dair to say to someone that i like him because i'm affraid of the answer. I had homework to today , not fun. I felt really bad this morning. Amber said that her boyfriend said that i look skinnier in real than on picture that wasn't bad but then she said that he tought i was fat. I was like why the fuck are you telling me this? Good start of a day right. I was hurted and angry and than Karolien started to say stupid things like it was his pc you aren't fat it was his pc. But it was on a tone like i'm skinnier than you and i'm perfect and you are fat .I was so angry at that moment that i just started to scream to her , i said you don't know anything about it you aren't fat you are skinny as fuck so stop talking shit because you can't talk about it because you don't understand ! I don't think she accpected that. Maybe i was overreacting but they just don't know how it is to be judged on weight and face , and be reminded of it everyday , every single day my mom says i have to lose weight. I'm trying , i'm really trying but it is really really really hard. I see people everyday that can eat what they want without getting bigger. It is just hard , i hate it.
10-09-2012 om 19:17
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
09-09-2012
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people change,memories not.
09-09-2012 om 19:40
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
funny fact
To be honest , i just love the serie awkward !
09-09-2012 om 19:30
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
busy weekend
First of all , sorry that i didn't write earlier this weekend but i had so mutch to do and so much in my head , let's start with friday. So thursday Andrea was sick but friday Tanne wasn't at school but good news , our class is changed so we sit all together now. Now we don't have to do the feets of the nerds because there just ugh. After school i was going to Aarschot with Amber and Karolien. First we have to wait for the bus that stan needed to take . Stan is Ambers boyfriend that i met wednesday when we where going to Leuven. When Stan took his buss we were ready to leave , i didn't saw William , he goes to Amber school. After shopping we missed our buss , like always. In the evening Jill and Tim were here to watch a movie and Jonas and Kevin also. We watched the movie and he was pretty scary. Jill felt asleep but i don't think she was sleeping. Tim is actually realy cool , i like talking to him and he is funny to when he talks to me i understand so good what he means we can talk about everything and we understand eachother. When we were watching the movie he layed on my arm the whole time. I kinda like him not like like but i like hanging around with him. That feeling started just that day.Jill and Tim and Karolien stayed for a sleepover and Jonas and Kevin went home. In the morning me and Karolien waked up because Jill and Tim were fiting. Jill was overreacting for nothing she said to Tim you are playing with my friends , you're cheating in me you never changed and that kind of things. We are just good friends you know? Jill also hit him in the face and Tim called her stupid bitch and Jill said say sorry or we are done and Tim said then we are done. Jill went downstairs to get a sigarte after an half hour she came back and she did like nothing was wrong? They were kissing and hugging. I was really confused and so was Karolien. We went to Aarschot with them and also Jonas and Kevin. And the fight begun again. Tim wanted a new phone but it was expensive and Jill didn't agry with it , but it's Tims choice. She was overreacting again and went outside so i helped Tim to choose a phone. After that we were just hanging around and stuff. Than we went back home and went to a stuff market. After that we went back home but we stoped at the football plaine and ranned under the water sprayers Jill and Tim didn't do it but i knew Tim wanted to he said that to me earlier so i asked why he wasn't coming with us. he had te stay by the stuff wen Jill wented to my house and let Tim alone , she was just so annoying , like really calm the fuck down! After playing we went home and waited for our food after eating Jill and Tim went home and we'd go outside with Jonas and Kevin. After we saw a movie they did go home and me and Karolien upstairs and did go sleep. To be honnest i don't think Tim loves Jill because if he does why didn't he give a fuck when she said they were done and why did he broke up 2 weeks ago , i just don't understand it.
09-09-2012 om 18:07
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
06-09-2012
what's wrong with me ?
I just feel so , bleih. You know what i mean? I feel like everyone is acanced me. That noboby likes me. Probably just some teen thing idk.
06-09-2012 om 21:51
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
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if it's meant to be , it will be.
06-09-2012 om 17:57
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
update check
I'm gonna upload my diary from Turkey this week . I don't know when but it's coming !
06-09-2012 om 17:55
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
some girl in the universe
