I'm feeling better , actually i was feeling better. I stayed from monday till friday at Tanne's place, so i didn't think about the bad things that happened everything went very well i felt better , happy and the reason of that was the support of my friends they made me laugh but not only my friends also one direction did alot for me , everytime i watch them or listen to them it makes me happy but also sad because i'm not able to go to the concert , speaking of the concert , Karolien said she might could get tickets for me and guess what , she can't so did she really had to make me happy to make me down again , and also the old story repeated himself , a week ago she was still crying about Djarno and now she had someone else that she knows for maybe 2 weeks , she didn't tell me i had to find it out on facebook , i texted her but she didn't reply the next day on school she pretended that she didn't saw me and i texted her again after school and she still hasn't replied , i'm just like , really ? where is your respect did our friendship even ment something to you? And apperently Jill and Tim are back together , ofcourse. My mom is coming back tomorrow finally! After this week i realized how good she is for us and how amazing friends i have , and i'm not talking about Karolien , she ruined it again it is never gonna me like before , never and i'm serious he can go find another doll to play with but not longer with me ! i'm done with this
17-11-2012 om 16:22
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
11-11-2012
sick of it
hello everyone , this week was jus awful. School started again after a realy bad vacation so i wasn't in a good mood anyways , apperently Tim wants Jill back but Jill loves somebody else , i mean like realy, are you serious? Figure out what you want and don't play with eachother. Also my mom left wednesday on vacation , for 10 days that's like super long and i miss her allready. I skipt school thursday and friday because i wasn't feeling well , Anke is like super nice to everyone and that's just weird , she is like an evil bitch and now she is like that it's really confusing. Friday i had to go to my dad's place , i just don't feel good there but after all it was oke at least he was happy to see us back. Also that competition from MNM wast saturday , but i didn't make it trough.I'm sick of it , sick of all those bad things. My mom calls me fat all the time , i'm never going to see 1D , i'm just broken at the moment. I even tried to cut myself , the first time in my life to just let all the pain away and to be honest it felt better.
11-11-2012 om 19:10
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
03-11-2012
worst day of my life
I cried like the whole day today but i'll first tell you what happened this week. Wednesday i went to Antwerp and i bought alot and i had fun. Thursday i went to Nicky's in the evening to have a dinner with Tanne and Milla also that was fun. Yesterday i went to a party but Jill was also there and she told Karolien that i was a bad friend and shit like that and i'm just like, realy bitch? I am i bad friend? What are you then? Jezus i hate her so much , and she said that Tim has a new girlfriend , like what? And now is she mad at him but euhm hello ? You kissed another guy when you just broke up? Who is the slut then. Than that awfull party and than today i can't even speek of it. The only chance that i had to see 1D and ofcourse i didn't get tickets , i did everything to get tickets no matter what but realy i'm in tears right now i would do anything , ANYTHING ! And now this my life just sucks. And also William didn't reply on my happy birthday text oke than i'm not gonna reply when i get a text from you , jerk.But yeah story of my life right?
03-11-2012 om 21:29
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
30-10-2012
here is the later
I could'nt wait to tell you all about my week so i went down to get the charger.So back to 1D, there is a contest from MNM where you get the chance to meet and see them in new york , crazy right? But is like a chance of one in a million but maybe i'm the lucky one , who knows. They are coming to Belguim in may and the ticket sale is gonna start saturday so i have to see that i'm on time for the tickets on the front row , hopefully when the concert is i'm early enough to stay on the first row. I'm allready looking forward to it. My vacation has been good allready , i went to Tanne and we had a girlsnight and i drunk a little to much , so i puked. First time i had to puke from the alcohol! But i had a great time. There was also a Halloween thing in my city and i also went to that , also that was fun. But the birthday party of me and my sister and brother was boring as hell , but the good thing was i asked my dad if he wanted to buy an appartment in London for me and guess what , he said yes ! I miss him and i feel sorry for him that i don't see him much , i want to change that but it's not gonna be easy , i'm still strugeling with the past but at the end he is and stays my dad and i love him.
30-10-2012 om 20:58
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
best week of my life
It's finally vacation , only for a week but yeah it's something right? Well as you allready now i always forgot to write things but i will do my best. I'm working at my body , i go to the gym and do more excercieses. But let's go to the real BIG news, ... ONE DIRECTION IS COMING TO BELGIUM!!!Sorry not sorry but i'm really excited ! i hope i'll get the chance to finally see them but later more because mu pc i gonna die now , laters!
30-10-2012 om 20:36
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
20-10-2012
long time no write
Sorry that i didn't write for a long long loooong time , but school is hard and their are always things in my mind. I'm gonna give you a quick update from what happend. So Bente is back with Micha , me and the rest of my class had i fight with Anke she broked up with nick but now they are back together.Karolien had a boyfriend but he is kinda using her and cheating on her, Jill and Tim broke up and Jill is now a bitch to Tim more than ever and i still haven't seen William and i'm also still upset with Niall from one direction.I'm also working on my health and weight. Almost every teacher in school don't like me because it is always me that does things wrong but i have to see that i'm always very loud , mostly you hear me before you see me. My friendship with Tanne Milla and Andrea is getting closer and closer, that is what i call real friends because they support me in my dreams and everything, the funny thing is me and Andrea both want to go to London and compete at the x factor together and hopefully we can do it as soon as possible, than i can check one thing on my checklist. Maybe i'm not gonna write very soon but when i can i'll do it, promise!
20-10-2012 om 00:51
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
06-10-2012
so tired
Sorry for not writing , i can't say everything because i don't remember anything. The fact is i'm still in to one direction asspecialy niall , i still miss William , i still want to go to London and i still can talk well with Tim and Jill is still a jelaous girlfriend.Of school i don't remember anything so i'm gonna skip that . There was alot of drama after Luna Festa about Bente Micha and Daphne , yesterday there was a party and we all went to there Jill and Tim and Joke stayed for the night , Jill was beiing a jeleous bitch and i completely understand Tim, we were just talking and she was freaking out and on the party we were being crazy and Jill just stood there with a face that said stop cheating on me , but we were doing nothing? ofcourse there is some chemistry with me and Tim i mean not love but just good friends. Karolien has a boyfriend and she didn't tell me about him and she still didn't i think that i'm losing her.And the fact that William doesn't care about me doesn't make anything easier. I'm still hoping that i ever get to meet niall and the rest of one direction , i really wanna reach my dreams now , but people are laughing at me and that takes my mood down. I was drunk at the party and me and Karolien were being SO crazy , best party ever. I went to the estetica shop today and i am so tired right now , i feel like nobody cares about me and about what i want. This is not the place were i want to be this is not were i meant to be i feel it and i know it , but i'm scared so scared that i will break.
06-10-2012 om 21:46
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
01-10-2012
silly Andrea
Omg , i just had an amazing time today and yesterday. I went to Tanne for a sleepover and we lought our asses out , but this morning we were verry tired but ofcourse on school we laught again supe.r hard. Andrea sat on my knees but i opend them and she felled between them and her face was just amazing ! Haha , and also i was doing funny things in class with my bathjass.I asked Andrea if sha wanted to take guitar , piano and sing lessons and come with me to London and compete at x factor and i will marry Niall and she will marry Zayn , dreams are great but the tought that they might not become reality is just hard broken.
01-10-2012 om 21:30
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
29-09-2012
boring saturday
I didn't do alot today.I was up at lunchtime so i eated and getted ready to work in the icecream shop , i hate working there. When my mom was back from her beauty time my shift was over so i chilled untill 5 o'clock and then i went to Aarschot to get paint for my room. And guess what i bought , a strike plank with the british flag on ! I'm allready looking forward to live on my own in London and hopefully reach something their , something that i always wanted. But from now i just have to wait and keep hoping and dreaming that someday i will reach my dreams.
29-09-2012 om 23:17
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
late again
Sorry for the long wait , again. I'm not in the mood so it's not gonna me a long post. I told you monday about thinking that my mom could have cancer , we asked her about the messages and they where not about her , luckely. The rest of the week i had a normal time at school nothing special. I'm thinking to plan a trip to London and finally try to reach my dream and stop thinking about what other people think about me.I'm 15 now and i'm not gonna let them take me down. Me british english is going better so their would be a change that i'm going to london before i'm 16 and i'm gonna try to connect or find the boys of one direction and Tom Daley , as fan and maybe as a friend. Im gonna start thinking about myself to not only about others.
29-09-2012 om 00:43
geschreven door somegirlintheuniverse
some girl in the universe
