I don't know why. Why wont they let me be who I want to be ? I mean ,I like metal & piercings & tattoo's.. I like wearing black clothes & spikes.. but they don't accept me the way I am :/ & that's breaking me... I don't know a lot of people like me people who know how I feel. I'm still searching but it's taking so long & it goes so slow.. & meanwhile I'm falling deaper & deaper :/
they don't know, they don't know what's going on inside of us. Inside our heads,in our mind.. they don't ask about it. they don't care.. But still they're trying to give us a perfect shape, without u noticing what's happening.. but we keep on fighting back, struggeling our way to our safehouse. It's a long & exhousting road. but we'll be back they don't know, they don't know how. we still come back as the people we justed to be...
People say that when you find yourself,you're proud of who you are but, I'm scared of who I might become.. Will I be beautifull & succesfull or will I live in a appartment living with my 20 cats? I don't even know if I ever gonna find myself Maybe I'll be dead before I can.. I'm just scared how my future's gonna be like..
today,first day at a new school.. I'm glad I survived it, I've met a couple of awesome people but still everything's different.. I'm a bit proud that I did this, still a bit nervous about what tomorrow will bring me but we'll see, I'm still excousted & that's the same in every school (:
everything is just falling apart.. my head hurts, can't sleep.. friends are going away & I just keep on staring how they leave me.. without a reason everything's gone. I don't think it's Karma or something, but I just keep myself asking,why? Why me ? Why ? School is going downhill.. teachers don't spent time on me anymore, I'm just hopeless.. thanks God for hating me so much.
