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In my life I made many mistakes and bad choices.
Some minor, some major.
But in the end, they all come back to haunt you.
I loved to be spontanios.
Now I am more carefull.
I am almost boring.
Actually I wished I was more boring when I was youmg
And more reckless when I got older.
Wanna know my bad choices ?
My marriage.
Wrong priorities.
Spending money on bad things.
Not looking forward to what may come.
Not thinking ahead.
What happend ?
I got divorced.
I lost my home
I lost my job,
My kids I hardly see.
I am depending on other people for a roof over my head.
And who is to blame ?
I thought no one.
Then I blamed others, like society, family and friends
No I know, I am the only one to blame.
And what are the consequences ?
People turn their back on me.
There is no order in my life.
And have nothing to offer.
All I have are my good intentions.
Is there a way out ?
Well I am in debt.
By the time I am done, there isn't much time to rebuild a life.
And should I be able to do that, what about having a good future ?
And even a good future makes me sad, for my past is lost.
Do I have any regrets ?
Of course I do.
I regret every lie.
Each time I cheated.
Every single mistake I regret.
And now ?
Now nothing.
I live my life by the day.
I enjoy every single moment of happyness.
07-12-2013, 14:50 geschreven door Jan Palmen 
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