.... living it, leaving it, to change. Change, that is what I need desperately. I wanna be someone, make something from my live. Im turning 24 in a few weeks and somehow I feel like Im at exactly the same place in my life as where I was 6 years ago.
But not anymore. Im gonna make some changes. Starting with moving!!!! So excited about it. I love redecorating, so letting myself go with an entire new apartment, feels like heaven on earth. When I grow up I wanna be an interior decorator.
What happened to those dreams? I remember being 12 and having all dreams about what life would bring me. I never suspected being stuck in a boring office building 40 hours a week and watching the clock every hour hoping the day would be over.
Maybe thats something else that I should change. Ive been telling myself for 3 years already. I need to get back to college, make something more out of my life then this. Maybe become that interior decorator. Sitting between the boxes of crap, it doesnt sound bad at all.
Yeah my heart may break It's the only chance for me to take And if tears should fall They will wash away and hurt me no more I'll make it on my own
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- Gemiddelde waardering: 0/5 - (0 Stemmen) Tags:moving, moving on, making changes
08-06-2010
He makes me feel worth it
Shes everything I ever wanted. Shes everything I need , If youd go what on earth, will come of me You all know them, the sappy songs, full of romance, dripping with love. I always wondered why people would write stuff like that. Just to make us all feel like love is the best thing in the world? Or did they really feel like that for someone at that point?
I never got it, but then, if I think about it, Ive never been in love. Until now!!! Im in love. I dont understand why, but I am. The most beautiful of it all, isnt that Im in love and I get all warm inside when I even think of him (I even get tears in my eyes writing about it right now). The best part is that he loves me. I doubt love is enough to describe what he feels. He adores me. He would do anything in his power to make me happy for the rest of my life.
Its scary, having someone love you that much. Im afraid, constantly. What if I did something that would hurt him? What if I cant be what he needs me to be? Maybe hell get bored of me. I cant make myself think like that. I might die if that moment ever comes.
