Scarlet lips as red as a rose, perfect hips in a seductive pose. On the outside this is what I may be, but what about looking at the heart within me.
Long dark hair, surrounding my face, baby blue eyes and full of grace. This is what most men chase, but my soul and feeling cannot be erased.
They say that these looks are a sensation, that I am one of God's best creations, But all I really want is for you to see, all the good that is within me.
I've decided that I'm moving back to my parents' house. I have to leave my appartement anyway so it's a good thing, maybe now I can save some money. I quit my job yesterday, I was so sick and tired of her... She thinks the whole world envolves around her cus she has a lot of money. Well now she can find someone else to clean up her mess, cus I'm not going to do it anymore. I think that I'm going back to school, I want to be a bachelor in businessmanagement. But first I have to work to pay my studies. I cought someone on a lie yesterdag... Are they really all the same? I talked with him on messenger for weeks now, he wanted to meet but I was like "I think I'll wait with that for a moment, I want to get to know him first before I meet him". It's a good thing I thought like that cus after all these weeks, I found out that he has a girlfriend. He said that if he told me he wouldn't got the chance to now me. Yeah good point! Now I got to now him in a lie... I also talked with a friend, I don't hear him much. It was strange... I realized he has the same lifevision as mine.... How could I not have noticed that? Yeah, ok I talk with him on msn but that happens very often. It's strange, he's so young but still has that kind of vision. I don't know... I doubt that he could handle my situation... It's not easy raising 3 kids if they aren't your own... I don't know.. I guess time will tell...
I'm moving... from Antwerp to Meerhout.... I'm done with Antwerp. People don't have any respect for each other. I don't want my kids to grow up like that. But I wish it was easier... finding a job... a new place to live. A new life wouldn't be that bad. Away from the people you know... no more gossip and stuff. Since my divorce.. I stared to live... had fun with my friends and stuff. But now I have to think about myself and my kids. I don't want them to grow up surrounded by people who don't have respect for each other. So I'm done... in a few week I pack my bags and leave. A friend of mine is coming over from greece this week. Another guy running after me... I don't want a random guy... I need someone where I can count on... someone true, someone honest, someone who will be there for me when I need him. It's hard these day to find a guy like that. Most of them only want one thing... but not me... time to settle down...
