Ik ben XxX, en gebruik soms ook wel de schuilnaam Heavy Light Bulb.
Ik ben een vrouw en woon in Hier en Daar (Belgie) en mijn beroep is .
Ik ben geboren op 01/11/1983 en ben nu dus 40 jaar jong.
Mijn hobby's zijn: .
Life - dreams - Fears - Wisdom - art
10-05-2009
where is my mind.
should they earth ever fall down on the sun. would all the secrets be revealed to me in the final hour. all our pockets would be empty , everything would make sense.
i pray for that day. Living in a world up side down is not a piece of cake. i do appreciate the cake its the piece that worries me. let me try, I'm dying to find out.
if caught in a web of lies that ray of sunlight brings hope. i keep reaching but i only attract more lies. all i can do is sit here and wait till the spider makes its move.
a deadly thought crosses my mind. that mirror can put me out of my misery. turn it slightly to the right , aim at the spider. but the light set flames to the web, and in the end it will kill us both. my only way out.
for the last time whisper in my ear one more lie. so feed my imaginary inner desire, pretend its forever. the only way i have enough power to grasp the mirror.
i delayed the night , it all keeps intriguing me. luring me away from what i once longed for. pain makes me feel alive the only conclusion i can make today.
if not forever then for how long, will i live by it. fear is a constant emotion everyone grows up with. the fear of failing your parents , or anyone else for that matter. fear of not being able to make it in time. what if the pain sinks in before the realism of fear reaches me. the rotation of the sun will get to me , one way or the other.
fear will still be present,the pain of lying here remains.
