Hello Bill,
Yet
again, another lost weekend. I was here and you were there and we were
not together, not in any way. Its these drugs, Bill, and you know it.
I know it. I feel more alone with you, now that Im with you. But hey,
you know Im not the girl that misses much. Nothing much at all. And
whatever I could miss, I try to forget about it. I dont keep
photographs or memories. I loose whatever Ive been given. My body does
not remember what you feel like, or taste like or how it was when you
touched me with your hands. My lips are ignorant of who you are, ready
to kiss whoever will take your place to kiss me and hold me and fuck
me. We all get screwed in the end, Bill, dont we?
So
maybe this is the end. Maybe it isnt, who can tell? Maybe youre just
getting old and age is getting to you. Just kidding, Bill, just kidding
Anyway,
I have to get back on track. Sort some things out, or just decide to
ignore them. Look, I know you think you have me and in a way you do.
But in so many ways you dont. I dont even know if you care. Its no
big deal anyway. It doesnt matter if you care or not, because even
this game will be boring me after a while. You know me. I probably just
needed someone to talk to, or maybe not even that. Just someone who
would sit with me for a while and listen to what Ive got to say.
Lets
just follow the sun and the moon. You know I never look back. Whats
the point? Ive known loneliness all my life and Ive learned to live
with it. Loneliness is nothing. I just dont want to remember how it is
and was or could be; feeling close to you
So, Bill, over and out?
Uma.
11-07-2005 om 00:00
geschreven door LaReineMargot
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