Hi Bill,
Do
I scare you? I know I do. I just dont understand why. It is probably
the way I handle things. Like everything I ever do is a matter of life
and dead. Should I be sorry about that? I guess so. But I am not.
Lately, Ive been wondering about whats wrong with me. Am I a disease,
do I need to be cured? But if I do scare you, please dont stick
around. Just dont because I will scare you even more.
It
is so hot that even the tab-water has lost its coolness. Maybe it is
just the heat driving everybody away from me. Everybodys leaving town,
theyre fleeing the city like Lot and his wife. Running away from Sodom
and Gomorra and dont you look back!
Enough
now of that sentimental shit, not making any sense. If I could, I would
apologize for being intense. Hey baby, were cool. Cool cats. We dont
mind, nothing is a big deal. But I still dont get it, I guess. Youre
the one in the first place that made me into this killer woman. So why
are you backing off now? Is it because you know I could bring you down
in an instant? A split second, so to speak. It must mean you dont
trust yourself if you cant trust me on this. Just because I could,
doesnt mean I would. Would you? Darling, would you?
I
take it you just did. Even though Ive been such a good girl lately.
And especially for you. I even felt like a good girl, really. And I did
things nice people do. Like they think about other people too and you
just know how they feel. At sometimes the right words come out then, so
you can even tell them that its not so bad. Its not so bad. They
start understanding. See how their life could change. Fear steps in and
theyre lost. Fear is the killer, Bill. Did you not tell me that? Fear
is the killer.
Will
you call tomorrow? Is it something I said? Why cant I be like other
people? Reality slips through my fingers, I have no grip whatsoever.
How can I hold on?
Bye Bill,
Uma
28-06-2005 om 00:00
geschreven door LaReineMargot
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